up n going...
a few days has passed... and i have FINALLY waken up from the "dream". haha! well as u would knw from the previous entry, i was sad and yea kind of wanna give up? but yea well now im back and ready to work even harder to reach my goal... ***Firstly i hav REDECIDED to get into the army first although im posted to 4SIR to hav my training haha so that i can hav a nice bod when i come out and i wouldnt be tied down by NS anymore... yupz so i guess i jus gotta defer my studies hopefully they would allow me to do so... ***yupz then i also wanna add on by saying thanks to each and everyone of u who has come up to me to encourage me further.thanks for offering a listening ear im so blessed to hav friends like u!!! :D ***anyways, just now when i was at friendster jus checking out stuffs, i chance upon this shout out " Not a Single Barker Boy wished me a Happy Birthday. Do I really have friends? " . seriously this brought back alot of memories... i rmb the year that i was totally ignored by everyone i didnt even had anyone to trust or to go to,my only option was my teachers... its so sad that on the day of my Bdae where i inivted many ppl only very little agreed to come. the rest jus gave excuses i was really down that year... but i told myself that i should be strong or maybe change the way of life i hav in school yupz and thkfully through out the years i was able to find close and trustworthy friends and i feel like im on cloud 9 now. yupz to who ever the person that posted that... dnt be sad... though finding a true friend is seriously hard in barker and everyone keeps denining the fact that we do play heavey politics... oh wells im glad that i washed my hands clean off politics :D
suit! stylo milo!
the big stage!!!!!
tabatha, tricia, winner, peishan, jane and me!!!!
backstage!!!!!
hahah me and my bilboard!!!
hahaa! wat is syed and eugene doing?!!!?!?
the guys!!!
syed and me
jane me peishan
me in swimwear going off!
coming down the travellator dam cool man!
GQ collectionz
levis
hehe me........
i swear i wasnt looking at winner's banner!
haha! im so tensed!!!
jus me posing
wow! so zhai! haha!
haha! me in evening wear i look dam disgusting... :D
me at the back ground eugene doing his thang... haha!
me!! for levis
lost the competition... :'(
well yesterday was a blast... though still kind of sad... didnt win and didnt get scouted... hais this fantasy has jus ended... a very good experience though... hav to go through wat a real show is like... the changing and stuffs... ok i better stop whinning and get to wat happen yesterday. well, yesterday we reported at 10 am but didnt really started until 12pm. when i first arrived i nvr had expected that the stage would be so good... the whole thing was dam grand. large banners of the contestants where hung everywhere... the stage was long and big... yupz very cool actually... yupz then at 12 we had our rehearsals... many on lookers were looking... yupz... then after the rehearsal we were let off to do our thing and for the girls they did make up so i left for lunch but didnt even eat jus fruits that kennth bought yupz. after "lunch" kind of jus went back to the backstage and jus slack its very tiring to wait so long for our turn and its worst when ur jus hungry and dieing to eat... after the girls done their makeup i went on to get mine done yupz. after makeup we jus had a even longer wait... then we had hair then after fitting... yupz when the time came for us to perform i was so scared that i would screw up... there was even this guy who commented that i shouldnt hav made it to finals jus doing his critisium at one corner though it doesnt affect me since he was kicked out during heats 2... how sad.... yea when its was my turn i was jus so scared... but did all my walk correctly jus that my mouth was so tensed up. i only started relaxing when its was the levis cat. cus the music was more up beat and ur able to walk on the beat... yupz... did the evening wear and was actually quite happy with my performance as this was my first time doing a evening wear segment. then we had the results round... well lets jus fast forward i didnt win anything... most popular male is george 2nd runner up mark 1st runner up george again and the winner is syed... im happy that they won cus they deserve it but its jus me and my nvr lose mentality hais.... dam sad... worked so hard, lost so much weight, head the gym, employ personal catwalk trainer, put in so much effort. but its jus all ended like that, i seriously wanted to cry cus i dissappointed my frens... all the calls and coming down r all wasted... though i hav to thk every single one of them for coming down to support me... and thks nani for the piggy... :) yupz... so after the competition i jus went backstage my whole mind was jus blank didnt really knw wat to do... yupz then met up with my frens to thk them personally... hais... sorry guys... guess i knew it all along its jus me being stubborn. oh wellz, got my banner n then headed for dinner with my family. i ate alot dnt knw whether was jus a way to jus stop myself from crying or its jus me being hungry... yupz after getting home theres nothing much jus slept through... yupz this is my day on the competition... yupz... i will get through it somehow jus need time to register... yupz ok thks for coming to my blog... pics would be up soon...
Closeup!!!
Me and PeiShan!!! haha on Zao Bao Now newspaper
Billboard at P.S haha way cool
the spa treatment at beaute spring
hectic day!!!!argh!!!!!!!
phew... it was a dam hectic day today... first i went gyming then after gym i got a sms from my dad telling me that i hav a audition tmr with TP drama club... when i called the lady back she has shown me great hostility as i had alot of questions for her... cus as most of my close friends would knw i retain 2years jus to get my o's cert and im 18 now so im kind of need to focus on studies and not get distracted... but the offer given by their drama team is as such that i hav to be fully committed to the drama team and i hav to go for every training so i kind of refer back to acjc drama bond if ur brought in by cca and its pretty dam hectic so i was taken back by wanting to join the drama team and more over has anyone heard of TP drama team be4??? i mean its not as if i dispaise the club but its more of how the lady replied she was dam relacten on answering my questions and jus gave me negative feed backs of "oh... u might not even be picked even after having to go through auditions" i mean frankly speakin i knw where i stand... being a student in singapore repertory theatre is only offered to the best in singapore and she was like acting as if i hav to beg to get into their drama team... hais... and the worst thing is that i HAV to give her a reply by today and if not then im automatically out hais so i was quite stressed as im out the whole day rushing from one fitting to another for this friday's show hais... i jus hope that i can jus be admitted into the course with no strings attached it really spoiled my day i had to make many calls in fact i cried in the bus not knwing wat to do it was kind of like a force to me as my deadline was today and i only recieve notice today... hais... then she expects me to get testimonials to prove that watever i wrote in the JPSAE form is true on how good i am... hais sorry if i sound very ego but im stating the facts and hais jus feel dam low! i jus hope that she can give me more time and be nicer when she's talking to me... hais.... anyways after dropping off at city hall where i fitted at peninsula i still was on the fone asking around about the club and like wat i shld do as im jus afraid of taking a wrong move cus i dnt wanna retain anymore... i need to move on and excel in life... yea... so was dam sad... anyways after fitting i went to suntec to get danny's hat as i lost his at the semis so i had to repay back to him so the time to the next fitting is jus an hour so i got his hat while talking to TP abt the drama thing then head on to carrefour to get my dinner... bought a whole chicken ah....... dam good! :D yupz then rush all the way to marina square where i went fitting at G2000 i was sweating like maddness but thk god i cool down and went on to try out the clothing must say that the outfit is good man haha but i look so kiddo hais... even lower chance for me to win hais...... ANYWAYS after fitting went off for dinner with kenneth, george, kevin and rashid hahah then i finally ate the whole chicken dam its good man... haha! yupz was jus talking lots of crap about the pics that we had taken and stuffs haha was jus laughing like mad haha talking about kevin smelling his trunks... haha! sick! yupz after that we went off to SPH where we had out training AH....... so tired!!!! yea but gotta memories all the chreograph haha being a model its tough but fun... yupz had training from7+ to 10+ yupz then haha i went down to plaza sing to see the "billboard" of me!!! haha go see it man! haha kind of like it except for the mouth! haha idiot braces... haha! yea then met up with mama g to go bac home together yupz its gonna be a dam big affair so ppl do come kz! oh... and like also i hav recieve alot! of negative comments about me being in the finals hais all i can say is that i cnt be borthered if ur that good then go join! haha more over this comment came from a person who im suppose to look up too... anyways! she wouldnt be in my list if i become famous one day.... yuzp okz... jus gonna head to bed now.... wanna blow the whole drama team away when they see my performance tmr!!! haha! yupz i will TRY havent been acting for a while... :D kk nitez ppl... yawnz~
wow its been a funny day today i was practically laughing the whole day today haha ok so tis is how my day went. got up earyl this morning cus we hav a spa treatment waiting for us at beaute spring spa so i got up early to catch a bus to head on down to bugis... i reached at 8am when we r suppose to be there at 8.30 hais me and my reatrdedly early symdrom. yupz so as expected i was the first person to arrive and i happily jus wait there like a idiot till the rest arrive... yupz ok so when everyone arrived the girls went off to hav their treatment first then it was the guys. haha this is my first spa experience so kind of dnt knw wat to expect haha so when it was my turn the therapist open the door to the single bedded room where i got my total privacy and haahah this is dam anti climax haha she said " er ok... u go wear the panties" hahahha! i was shocked haha i tot i went into the wrong room or something haha but i jus went on to wear the boxer like thinggy and lie on the bed face down ready for her to do her thing. haha i was very tensed cus i think no one has ever given me a massage except for my parents so kind of weird and like cus its a woman whos doing it so haha kind of thinking kinky not as in wat i would do to her but of the other guys haha so yea was jus very uneased... but i jus told myself to relax so that i can enjoy the most out of it... haha then as i was relaxing haha kennth who is at the room next to mine produced loud laughter or like as wat he says, moans... haha so its like dam irritating la hais but jus went on with it... haha kz. then after the massage i had to turn around to do the facial haha its dam cool man all this layers or different texture,temp and smell things were put on my face the head massage was good too... oh yah as for the massage rite i really like the vigarous rubbing of my back haha pls dnt think dirty but its really was dam comfortable haha yupz so after the whole treatment we went on down to Lerk Thai to hav out lunch kindly provided by SPH yupz very hot course. i got... the red curry... haha during my lunch i was talking to kenneth and i was complaining like crap haha and he was like no la the lady was dam funny and she was dam ROUGH! haha wow... dnt wanna knw more man.. its jus lots of laughters la cus we keep making up sick instances yupz. then after that we had to go back to the shop where we were privellged to hav the whole shop closed jus for the models and the newspaper readers who won something to go shopping. we had been given 50bucks worth of voucher and i jus keep buying and buying haha then eugene was like thinking how to spend he dnt wat the hell to buy haha... so he bought all the toothpaste and brushes haha and i jus keep laughing cus like there r other expensive stuffs in the shop and he end up buying that haha kevin was worst he bought like 20 cans of this aroma spray the ones that my grandma use so haha jus shocked la and i jus kept laughing haha im crazy la sorry... so after the shopping we went home. but my mum picked me up so we end up going to the topshop warehouse sale and then! kenneth chua called and told me that his mum is gonna call $1 worth of votes for me as she saw me on the papers haha adding on to kenneth's promise of another 1buck worth haha dam happy la seems like the chua family r my biggest supporters haha thks alot chuaz!!!!!!!!!!! yupz so thats about it la haha my laughing experience today i hope i made u laugh too cus i sure did recalling bac... yupz now im gonna hav my dinner so ciao~ :D oh ppl the voting close 22feb so call now!!!!!!!!!
feeling low...
jus came back from catwalk session hais dam tired. not cus of the walk but jus tired of trying to be the best in everything i do... hais was told that i walk like a girl and pose like one at the end of the runway... i knw that its not to tear me down but to change me so that i can be a better catwalker... but hais i dnt knw man i hav deprove alot hais maybe cus i jus wanna keep out shining the guys and keep coming out with retarded ways to walk... hais... so pressurising... im the only young one in the competition with a young face ok maybe kevin also but i dnt wanna be compared to him i wanna compete with the rest! hais how i wish that i could be more manly... its like dam difficult to "seduce" the audience, walk with stye and sell the clothing... man.... im tired... i feel like giving up but this is my dream and im not gonna let go of it.. hais frankly speaking i doubt i would win and go shanghai cus in this industry its dam hard to find a teenager doing a catwalk not for the guys at least... hais... been training so hard in the gym also dnt knw for wat since i knw i wouldnt win... hais.... i jus hope that i can be spotted and a agency will groom me for real... hais all this dieting also dnt knw gonna bring me where... hais jus gonna take things one thing at a time... :(
had a sucky valentine's...
hais.... valentine's day. this is how i spead my day. i went gym... hais i dnt knw but ive been rather lazy its like i hav no motivation to go gyming anymore even my gym buddy is like not interested in going gym with me... hais... but i guess i jus gotta discipline myself if not im jus gonna look horride on finals... yupz ok then was suppose to go for a hair cut but the hairstylist is like running away from the company he works in... dam lame... hais wanna get a haircut also so difficult... anyways when i got home my parents wanted to head on down to beach road so like im kind of in a hat craze right now so i felt like going on a shopping spree since i havent been going for a while so i followed them. when i got to the shopping area i made a bargain with this shop lady and she jus shouted at me and stuff i was so fasturated i jus walked off and she end up saying okok i sell to u... i mean wat the hell rite... i hate this kind of service if u cnt then jus tell me u cnt price it so low hais! spoil my mood only... but in the end i still bought it from her cus i really wan it so got it for 4.50!!! haha! yupz then got home to prepare myself a potato meal... im like seriously out of idea on how to incoparate potato into a dish... haha... kk i better get back to my workout feeling kind of fat now... oh! jus a reminder erm ppl pls vote for me asap pls dnt do it last min.... i mean that if u would even wanna fock out 20cents for me...yupz so pls do so asap anyways wanna wish those loving couples a happy valentine's day!!!
NS SUCKS!!!
well well well... guess wat i found out... hais i would not be able to defer for poly if the posting doesnt come out be4 10 march oh man it jus shatter my plans... i mean if im going to a good unit its ok... but im under monointake hais... im jus dam fustrated with the govt they say they will support anyone who would like to further their studies but in this case i think its more of i wanna lock u in the unit which alot doesnt want to... gosh... i hope they will approve my deferment man... i dnt wanna be someone useless n the army... i work so hard to get grades to go poly not to go into army where im paid lowly... God help me....... it seems like i always get into situations that jus wanna tear me down..... why cnt i jus be like any a level students go to tekong... :( im jus dam sad rite now...... how i wish i was a dutch citizen......... or even better a american citizen... i guess its this small things that make ppl in singapore migrate... hais... i really need help now.... :(
results are out!!! praise the Lord!!! :D
the results r finally out!!! :D so happy!!! i did it!!! im jus overwhelmed and overjoy all this thks to God... wanna praise him for the many wonders he has done for me!!! wow... phew... at least my 2 years of studying in Barker again wasnt a waste of time... ok ok enough of my maddness well ok this are the results ************************************************************************Eng B3Maths B3Lit B3Art B4Humans C5CLB PASS************************************************************************haha yupz so there it is my result! haha frankly i was jus dam scared this whole morning was about to cry and stuff cus keep getting negetive vibes but seriously! praise the Lord!!! jus hope that i can get into the course i wan haha okz thats it ciao! :D
M1 Adler Poh Jun Yuan haha!!! vote for me!!!
VOTE VOTE VOTE!!!
hello! haha im so excited! the pic is out on zao bao now!!! i woke up early today to check out my pic on the papers... haha which u see above haha not bad larz... should see on the papers its clearer. ok anyways, ppl!!! i need as much help as i can get PLEASE!!!! tell ur friends and family members to vote for me haha! seriously... modelling is my passion this really means ALOT to me yupz so pls help me on achieving my goal! pls... in this industry its hard to get noticed and so if i win or at least get top 3 i will get noticed and hopefully my career will take off. the reason on to why im so eager for ur vote is also cus ur vote counts to 20% of the results so yupz PLS HELP... :D i will do my best on the finals so yupz thats my promise to u! ok this is how the voting goes...
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voting starts from now till 22/2/2006 5pm
update frm GQ
haha its been a few days since i recovered from my sickness thk god! haha anyways im here to update u guys on the competition at Glamour Quest well ok so lets start with semis... when i first reached momo i was jus feeling miserable and like sickly cus that day i had only jus recover and like jus occasional coughs and giddyness yupz but still manage to pull myself together to prepare for the competition... we had to wait a LONG while be4 it was our turn for the guys to do our hair and makeup so we were jus slacking haha and doing crazy stuffs i was like pole dancing on one of the poles at momo haha then sam came along to dance too! haha its was jus hilarious! then about 5 or 6pm danny the runway choreograhper came in and we had our rehearsals wow its like quite complicated but thk god i manage to pull it through for the show... haha yupz yupz so its jus keep walking and walking again and again haha but its fun laz.... oh man like for the swimwear section danny added in a fan at the end of the runway haha mainly for the girls to blow their hair... haha! yupz but during the showtime itself when i did the swimwear walk... i was like alll good and ready to go... haha so i hit the runway did the walk hah walk to the end... and man! the wind blew at me haha at that instant i straight away felt that its a victorias secrets thing hahaha so i had like this sudden out burst to laugh but i had to control cus i hav braces and its best that i dnt show the judges haha but when i hit my last pose i jus couldnt take it i jus give a big smile and walked off haha jus dam funny la!
then for the casual wear section its normal nothing funny or wat so ever but there this other funny thing haha cus for the swim wear we hav to apply oil on to our body to make it more define or wat so ever rite... haha so the whole changing room seem to hav became a major gay orgy haha man i was like laughing laughing and laughing haha even Jane the manager from carries was like haha first time exprience for u eh? haha yea indeed a first time haha jus so overwhelming... oh wells... :D
yupz so at the end of the show we jus had to wait for the results of who of the 30men and 30 females will make it up into finals and only 10 from each sex will make it... yupz so i decided to jus chill at the back of the changing room jus stoning and stuffs was jus thinking if i dnt get its ok if i get it i will do my best! yupz then like suddenly random contestants came up to me telling me they will sure call my name but i was still doubtful anyways so i was like in a stoning mode yupz then like cus the back stage quite a number of the models were smoking and me as a non smoker i jus could not take the smoke so i tired to adjust the fan next to me to blow the smoke away from me... and then! suddenly PAK! the fan blade slice a little of my skin on my finger... at first i dnt knw anything happen then suddenly i hear Jane saying fuck fuck! hahaa and she rush to me with a bandage yea haha hais... i was jus stoning again by the sudden incident and like hais jus listening to wat they wan to me to do to stop the bleeding so hais... so suay.... yupz then suddenly they jus called out my number as i hav gotten myself into finals and i was jus shocked and asthetic haha if thats how its spelled yupz so went up the stage and the host was like wow haha wat happen to ur finger... haha oh hey and its the middle finger i injuried! hahaha!
ah... wanna thk mama g, ivy, sally, darren, vanessa & vilot for coming down to support me so haha thks! yupz alot of the previously eliminated contestants came bac too so yupz thks for ur support! :D haha yupz anyways erm i need more support now more than ever!!! so if ur reading this pls help me spread the word to support me by voting at www.zbgq.com.sg its worth 20% of my result for the competition so i need all the help i can so yupz pls help... i think the web will be updated for voting lastest by next week monday yupz so pls support thks! :D
haha ok now for the gossip and bitching session!!! haha actually i dnt hav gossip for u but i hav alot of bitching session to put up... haha welll ever since i got into finals there has been two contestants that hav been bombarding me with negetive comments haha their pics i will put up later well haha ok lets start with someone who hate me even be4 i get to knw him in the competition well this guy haha i seriously hav no prob with but it seems like he turn out to be the bitchist guy in the guy cat. haha so anyways he told alot of ppl that from first glance of me at the auditions he hav already labled me as not pleasing to the eyes in hokkien and like jus cnt keep his mouth shut talking about me... he went on by engagging a crowd of female contestants and asked one of my female friend this question "hey ur friend is gay, girl or guy ah?" my fren replied guy of cos.... and so he went on by replying... " if he guy... he knw how to masturbate or not?" haha! welll alot of the girls laughed but alll i can say that is in which theory does its states that if ur a guy u MUST masturbate haha clearly this show how immature, shallow and valgure this guys is valgure in both meanings.... yupz haha thats alll im gonna say of him and hey U! u... the person who said that about me and is reading this... i wanna tell u... having to talk behide my back and not coming to me head on to express ur displease goes to show that ur even worst than a woman (usual associated with bitching) haha so it also goes to show much more of ur sexual identity... OPPS sorry... i didnt knw that ur so gay in fact to bitch behide my back when u hav no backbone to come face to face with me haha morron! i bet alot of ppl will agree with me on that oh and sorry girls for associating bitching with u guys haha but its true.... hahah ok LA!!!! MINORITY r... happy! hahah yupz ok lets go on to the other one... haha this contestant my mum ever made fun of haha ok its not only my mum but alot of ppl he is jus a mockery to himself... doing poses in such a way that jus makes ppl laugh their hearts out... haha oh wells... kz... that guy he went to two of my friends and commented "haiya, that M1 (refering to me) shouldnt not hav gotten in" haha ok for his comment i will not comment much but frankly speaking... his remark doesnt hav any impact on me judging from my current position in the competition and his position its jus not worthy me wasting my time haha so hmm jus gonna let it off... haha ok thats about it la the bitching going behide my back...
oh i hav good times too! haha i heard from one of my friends this lady who was behide her haha commented when i went on the runway to walk haha she commented "wah this one very handsome!" hahaha! EGO!!!! haha then the funniest part is that when my name was called out to get into finals she SCREAMED!!! haha hais... haha im jus happy that ppl appreciate wat i like doing best... yups so thk aunty!!! :D
ok yup thats all for update on momo... the next update i hav is frm the photoshoot we had yesterday at SPH yupz haha i was feeling all good man haha posing here and there haha dam cool the pics will be showed on the lian he zao bao this thursday haha so must see kz... oh haha and according to danny i did a Dior shoot too for my formal one haha so im eager on seeing the outcome but i think it would be good... judging from the countless photoshoot sessions i been in to lex myself... yupz.. nothing much happen yesterday laz jus lots of waiting, changing, makeup & hair and posing yups thats about it hah i think i would need treatment to my hair real soon! haha ok thats all im gonna update haha thks for reading i knw it very long but i hope u enjoied reading as much i did so yupz going for fitting later at Levi's so i guess i will blog again soon then! haha ciao!
sick AGAIN!!!
:'( me weak body is sick again... went for a jab yesterday nite dam it was painfully and like i was crying the whole nite cus its jus to painful for me to take not the jab ok maybe partly but the pain of going through this sickness.... headach, fever, body ach and vomit man... hmmm still feeling weak now but gonna go rest it out to prep for tmr semis at momo!!! those eligible pls come and support kz!
prawn mee for sale!!! 8bucks for one! hahaha!
yummy! mmm.... prawn mee up close and personal!!! ;P
best prawn mee ever made!
hahahaha! yay! im well again thks for those that hav prayed for me yea? anyways yesterday nite the WHOLE nite i was jus thinking about prawn mee!!! and SO! today morning when i got up i straight away got my maid to take out the ingridents for me to masak masak!!! hahaha! well and it turned out great!!! haha jus look at the pic i knw u wan one! haha well it taste great too hmmm jus one level below the best prawn mee at jalan sultan haha! okz gonna get more rest now so that tmr i can go gyming!!! :D
